God’s Multi-dimensional Love for Gary Piper
On June 23, 2013 in my Prayer Journal I wrote the following introduction to what was and will be a life changing experience/project.
There are times LORD when I do not love Gary Piper especially during those times when I stand in direct opposition to what I know to be your will for me. There is no better example than yesterday when I stopped writing and took off on my own. When I do things like that I struggle to understand why, why didn’t I just stay writing? When I think about my life and my love of self it would be great to love Gary Piper as you do LORD and therein may lie one of the solutions to not just my own life but the lives of every person on this planet.
How can I experience the depth, height, width, and power of your love for Gary Piper, Father God?
When I think about your love not just for me but for everyone I see it as four dimensional it has depth, it has height, it has width, and it has power. In human terms time is called the fourth dimension but your love Father God resides outside of time and that would be true of the other three dimensions were it not for Jesus’ life, death, and resurrection then the coming of the Holy Spirit.
Father God, can you please commission the Holy Spirit to teach me about the five dimensions of your love for me. I am beginning to see that when I can love Gary Piper as you love Gary Piper is the solution to the 4922 24th Avenue dilemma. I would also like to make that study a priority if you don’t mind. And would also like to dialog with the Jesus/Holy Spirit in my imagination as well Father God.
Perhaps some background on what I refer to as “the 4922 24th Avenue dilemma” might give some insight in where I am at in this stage of my life. Since my retirement in April of 2009 my wife (Patti) and I have put our lives on hold while my wife is the primary caregiver to her aging mother who cannot take care of herself. If you have ever had hopes and dreams for your life then suddenly see them placed on hold and at the same time watch them fade into the great abyss of time then you can appreciate my (our) inner struggle to keep our hopes and dreams alive and at the same time put them aside.
As sensitive and as non-judgmental as I possibly can let me add my mother-in-law into the mix. To put it rather bluntly she is the most selfish and controlling person I’ve ever met. To watch her in action you’d soon get the impression that everyone’s life comes second to hers. It does not matter to her whether or not our lives are on hold or not. And it is out of my own struggle/reaction with the 4922 24th Avenue dilemma that I find myself not loving Gary Piper.
However, in spite of what I’ve written about my mother-in-law there is one thing that needs to be taken into consideration EVERYONE does things for a reason. And there are times when the REASON becomes the most important consideration when thinking about the actions of another, life can never be looked at as Black and White or in this case my mother-in-law. I believe when God looks at our life he never sees our lives as just Black and White but as Gray. And the “Gray Area” of my mother-in-law is insecurity. She is one of the most insecure persons I’ve ever known and it is her insecurity that has shaped her life into the 94 year old selfish and controlling person she is today.
One more thing I need to add to the “mix” I believe we are never totally 100% the person God intends us to be. The Apostle Paul put it this way, “All of us have sinned and fallen short of God’s glory.” (Romans 3:23 CEV) However, to see ourselves as imperfect is one of the hardest things we ever do yet at the same time as hard as it is it is a MUST do. Yet because we are imperfect there are times when we find we become “colorblind to the color Gray” seeing only Black and White which cause dangerous ripples of conflict in our lives. While I am no real expert I think therein lie the maladies that fill our world not only with frustration, anger hatred, and violence but also at the same time with hopelessness, depression, substance abuse, emotional suicide, spiritual suicide, and sometimes life taking suicide.
Instead of being a violent person (thank you God) I am a submissive person (as is my wife) and speaking from experience submissive people can and often do find themselves as oppressed people. I have a tee shirt that reads “Controlling Person” that may be the shirt my mother-in-law should wear but it’s not shirt I should wear. Mine should read “Controlled Person”! Yet as submissive as I am (I can only speak for myself) deep inside is the desire/will/power to be free to be me. Remember in your early American History when the flag said “Don’t Tread on Me”? That pretty much describes the inner Gary Piper however being a submissive non-violent person (thank you God) I find myself on the “road” to hopelessness, depression, emotional suicide, spiritual suicide, please notice the ones I’ve omitted (thank you God).
The previous 5 paragraphs bring me to the point I am this morning when the Holy Spirit reminded me I need to love Gary Piper as God does not as Gary Piper does which left me asking the question. How can I experience the depth, height, width, and power of your love for Gary Piper, Father God? I am not sure what prompted me to understand God’s love as multidimensional but I am sure the Holy Spirit had a big part in formulating it. Since then I have wondered if God’s love has (at least) four dimensions how many dimensions does Gary Piper’s love have. For me one of the most overlooked and under-appreciated scriptures can be found in chapter 8 of Paul’s book to the Roman church. “In everything we have won more than a victory because of Christ who loves us. I am sure that nothing can separate us from God’s love–not life or death, not angels or spirits, not the present or the future, and not powers above or powers below. Nothing in all creation can separate us from God’s love for us in Christ Jesus our Lord!” (Romans 8:37-39 CEV) I believe the within the message of Romans 8:37-39 is the fifth dimension because it speaks of the Power of God’s love which I will hereby call the first dimension of God’s Love.
At the outset I would like to number the dimension like this:
- The First Dimension of God’s Love is Power
- The Second Dimension of God’s Love is Unconditional
- The Third Dimension of God’s Love is Height
- The Fourth Dimension of God’s Love is Depth
- The Fifth Dimension of God’s Love is Width
Please understand I am not prioritizing them nor am I suggesting you can separate them from each other because the bottom line is this GOD IS LOVE! While we may believe in the Trinity (God the Father, God the Son, and God the Spirit) GOD LOVE IS UNIFIED! When we begin to even try to understand God’s Love we are treading into the greatest mystery of all time and while we WILL NEVER reach a full understanding it is the journey toward understanding that is important because when we do so we will encounter and experience not only God’s Multidimensional Love first hand but we will experience God as well.
While I have titled this “God’s Multidimensional Love for Gary Piper” it goes without saying the title could really end with your name. What follows is how God’s Love for me impacts my life on the uniqueness of my own journey from life to death to life.
On June 25, 2013 I wrote in my Prayer Journal:
Father God, you are my Greatest Blessing! And quite frankly my relationship with you keeps me going even when I feel as if I am alone in my struggles to make heads or tails out of this crazy mixed up life I am living. There are times when it is so messed up that there’s no way this could be your plan for my life! I know over that last couple of days I have disappointed you and I proclaim this morning those days are behind me. I know I can’t have you your way when I am walking in my way. One of my greatest needs LORD is to feel your presence with me 24/7 and the goal for my life is to experience your presence 24/7.
I need to keep pursuing, implanting, and experiencing loving Gary Piper with YOUR Love. But doing so means so much more than just experiencing YOUR Love in me I MUST at the same time live it as well. It is as I empty myself of YOUR Love it you replenish it.
I believe with all my heart that in order for God to continue Blessing us we must continually empty ourselves. It is NOT ENOUGH for God to place in me his Multidimensional Love for Gary Piper to do that is like filling the gas tank on your car then just sitting at the pump going nowhere. I am convinced that ALL of the worlds problems could be solved if everyone experienced and lived out God’s Multidimensional Love.
Note: I am finishing this on June 21, 2014 nearly a year later and much as happened since I began writing. The most significant thing that happened way Patti’s mom passed quietly away on March 12th which has not only freed Patti from the awesome responsibility she carried for nearly 6 years but has given us both the opportunity to rediscover each other and our marriage. There are times when I believe when one of the most profound ways God illustrates his Love is through death. That may not be true in all cases such as suicide, murder, a death related to drugs and alcohol, or accidental death but in Patti’s mom case (and even in my own mom’s case) death became the doorway not only to heaven but also to ultimate freedom.
Grace and PEACE
Scriptures otherwise noted have been “taken from the Contemporary English Version © 1991, 1992, 1995 by American Bible Society, Used by Permission.”